
Wonderin' - Neil Young - 1983
Wonderin' (Live at Fillmore East) - Neil Young - 2006
Sometimes I'm fascinated by the choices that artists make to follow their hearts and to drive their careers into near-ruin. On the schizophrenic saunter through recent music history we call BEATSWATCH, this post seemed only fitting.
In the early 80s, Neil Young decided that he was going to release pretty much whatever kind of album he wanted to. He released the unexpected Trans in 1982, an early electronica album that is remembered much more fondly today than it was at the time of its release. It was followed soon after by 1983's Everybody's Rockin', a markedly less beloved 25-minute Rockabilly concept album. Think of it as Trans' runty and unfashionable little brother. Yes, that's Neil Young on the cover, looking more like a cross between Brother Love and Dan Aykroyd than the crusty folk-rock singer that we've come to know and love (or just know.)
A popular interpretation of Everybody's Rockin' is that it's a satirical slap in the face, a bad joke or a thoughtless genre exercise made at the expense of unexpecting fans. I can't help but believe that Neil Young's desire to make this record went deeper than that. Wonderin' is a track Young wrote prior to 1970 (whether or not in Rockabilly guise) and had obviously been wanting to record for some time. Its appearance on 2006's Live at Fillmore East evidences its unique spot in his memory. Maybe Everybody's Rockin' is an idyllic and surreal fantasy of simpler times, free from the angst and social discord that had accompanied Young and his music through the 60s and 70s.
The song itself is refreshingly simple and sweet in its delivery but also pathetic and ham-fisted in its sentiment. I imagine an abusive boyfriend staring at the ground, kicking dirt around idly with his foot before making a familiar, shy and dispassionate plea to his hopelessly ensnared girlfriend: "I'm a wonderin'... if you'll come home." It also kind of sounds like something Leland Palmer would listen to over and over again in his living room, but that's neither here nor there.

